Prayers and thoughts...

OK...very rough couple of days. I hesitated in sharing all of this information, but figured it probably would be best to have as many people praying as possible.

I would ask for everyone's thoughts and prayers for Kurt (and our families) at this point in time. He is going to be having a CT scan on Monday to check for some problems with his lymphnodes. Because of his Crohn's disease, he is on an immunosupressent, which lowers his body's white blood cell count and ultimately keeps his body from fighting infections. At this point in time, he has a respiratory infection, but his doctor is concerned because many of his lymphnodes (on his left side) are sore and inflamed. Because of the medicine lowering his body's ability to fight, he is at a higher risk for diseases. Among other reasons for having the CT scan, he is concerned that there may be a risk of Kurt having lymphoma. We are both hoping that his concern will be unfounded when the results come back because he does have an infection. Nonetheless, the thought of Kurt having cancer is really throwing us for a loop. It still feels very surreal, but Kurt is dealing with it remarkably well. Me, on the other hand, not so well. We're assuming everything will be fine, but the thought of someone as young, kind, and loving as Kurt having to deal with this really tears my heart apart. I know there are many worse situations out there and that I should feel lucky that we've been safe this far, but it really does hit home when it's your husband that might be sick. Please PLEASE pray for us.

Further more, I had to take Shosta to the vet this morning because she has had some diarrhea and threw up several times this morning. They think she may have a mild case of pancreatitis, which means her pancreatic fluid is eating at her pancreas. They had to do some Xrays and blood tests (without me being there, I'm surprised she didn't bite someone's finger off) as well as get a hydrating fluid injection. I'm fasting her until tomorrow morning and then starting a strict diet. Of course, as all mother's feel when a child (in this case my dog) is ill, I am sick with guilt, wondering what I did/didn't do.

So, as my world seemingly crumbles around me (I know...being a bit over-dramatic I suppose), I ask that you pray for us all (including my doggie) and that we all make it through the next week in one piece. But please pray for Kurt most of all.